The Wonderings of a Wruth

Today is a Monday, it’s the twenty first day of November. I haven’t written on here in awhile and I must admit I have been in a weird place as of late but last Monday I got some definitive answers as to why I’ve been feeling the way I have been. It was just a regular check-up, or so I thought. I’d been feeling exhausted and I’d been repeatedly sick for over a month so it was becoming a problem at work. Maybe I was low in minerals or iron or something I figured as I waited to see the doctor. I’d done the blood and urine test the week before at the hospital and so those results would tell me something along the lines of me having to drink more water or eat a better diet with more fibre, because those tests would come back normal. I was wrong. The doctor came in, asked how I was feeling and then proceeded to load up my file on his computer while we chatted about my abdominal pain still occurring. The page with my results finally loaded up on his screen, I could see it over his shoulder as he read. Urea levels are good, which means my liver and kidney are doing good. Then he said it. My blood glucose levels were high. I was diabetic. It hit me in the gut like a small sledgehammer, I felt floaty. I’d been diabetic over ten years ago when I drank myself into it with bad decisions. I’d managed to turn my life around with diet and exercise but to have it come back was a shock and I kind of just sat there thinking back and recalling how hard that was to get through. At the time I didn’t want to do it all again and I won’t lie I walked home, sat down on my bed and cried while my fiancee comforted me and told me we’d get through it together. And so here I am a week later, my sugars have come down a lot, they’re not in good levels yet but they’re on the way and with the meds I’m on, I am feeling better mentally. I have a journey ahead of me towards maintaining my health and getting back to 100% but I know I am on the way. That’s a lot to read I know and if you can take anything away from this please if you aren’t feeling normal don’t doubt yourself. You never know. Go get checked out.